BROKEN!!!

Today 17 january 2011!!i am sad!!extreamly sad~i cant control ady!!i am crying...i knw i cant be tough at tis moment!Last time my family hav seven people...now i am lost one of them.!!i lost her not becaz death or whatever!!just becaz ....ok!!i said like tat if hear good...tat means she leave me for doing her sucess!!but if hear bad,tat mean she abandon me!!i hate her!!!I have try to give her many chance......but i not see she has appreciate it!!she like treat me n my family..i will double up treat her like tat...i promise myself...i will more sucess than her...i am not like her....put her family at last...selfish!!U let my mum dissapointed!!u should knw u r tat one mum vry appreaiate u!!vry love u!!nw u do like tat...i aso dun knw wan hw!!Do u hav think about us???where should we live??how should faced itt??Hw??u tell me!!u knw mum said last time u sais after u graduate u will help her...nw!!what u do nw??u r hurt her!!hurt her so bad!!!! u wan me hw to forgive u??i am hav a big exam tis year!!i supposed to concentrate in my study!!!u make me super duper sad!!!At last ,i jell u i just wan tell u i hate u!!!!!!!!!!